A crisis of faith is hovering over the world at this moment. The atheist movement is growing stronger and the sense of purpose & meaning in this world is decreasing. We are now considered the enlightened ones, free from the delusion of God, empowered by the scientific surge of revelation. But from what I have come to realize, there is a big mistake being done here, and we are already seeing the results today.

A big part of my teenage years was spent in demystifying the world around me. I could not simply process and accept the amount of bullshit, the amount of fiction governing our world. And I could also not see the end of destroying my reality and the psychological horrors that came with it. If there is something that I have learned, it is that the metaphysical forces that advance our species are so important for us as part of being human, and as part in being connected to global networks in the information age.

The old religions are paradoxically not dying as many atheists and scientists have predicted, but their value and what they produce is increasingly declining for each year that passes. We need religion more than ever, we need God. But in this pursuit, we need to reinvent religion, so that it fits the nature of reality, the nature of physics. We need to redefine the word of God as something that we collectively create, not something eternal that created us.

Now to be clear, I myself am a hyperrealist, and I have many times found myself viewing the world as a nihilist. But I intend to change this because it is profoundly necessary to do so. I have learned much from deconstructing the world around me, but it can only bring me to a certain point of progress.

There are already movements today trying to answer the question of what the God of our times and future should be and I intend to investigate this further. We should not forget that atheism itself is in many ways religion, as you could call it the devotion to the objective and the revelations of science. But I have increasingly found this perspective and way of living only to be paralyzing, and it has increasingly made me jealous of the fruits that the delusional followers of ancient inter-subjective creations reap in terms of meaning, purpose, and willpower.

Religion is too important to leave in the hands of today’s structure of power, it is too stained by past belief systems that do not reflect our time and our needs. We need to bring purpose back to our worlds, not by mysticism and ancient scrolls of pure nonsense but by design that brings us together and empowers ourselves collectively. I do not have the answer today, as my search truly just has begun. But once I collect something substantial enough, something that I can truly accept, and could possibly benefit others in the same pursuit, I will engage.


I quite early stumbled upon the question of free will and whether I was an agent with the ability to decide the course of my own life. Initially, and instinctively, I felt that there was some truth to the idea that I am actually not in control, that there is something else that governs. But also, this idea was somewhat painful to consider and evaluate, the fact that I do not even control the outcome of my own life, and the implications it brought to surface considering moral aspects and the meaning of life. If I am not the narrator of my life, then what is?

I went on as nothing had changed, but as time went by, the question started to drill slowly into the depths of my brain. I could not escape the logic, from seeing patterns suddenly unfold from my every day life, patterns that indicated that there was evident correlations between this question and life itself. There was no turning back from this and now I had to redefine how I perceived reality, as I had done many times before from not being able to escape questions like this one.

Since the brain is divided into conscious parts and unconscious parts, it is what allows the logical fallacy of free will to occur from the very beginning. When sudden danger appears, we act immediately with either a flight or fight response with the output of instructions from the unconscious and more primitive parts of our brain. We rarely have any control over these actions and we might feel that something takes over our body in order to handle the situation at hand.

No free will what so ever

But when we take very day decisions,  like choosing where to go for a vacation, we can all sit nice and quietly, contemplating over what would be most fun or most giving. We are then engaging the conscious parts of our brain, being able to look at several alternatives simultaneously, accounting from past experience and the information we have at our disposal, and most of all, being consciously aware during the process.

Same here, your only being aware of what you end up choosing which is pre-determined or at least random from the beginning

Let’s say you chose to go to Rome? Now explain to me how that decision was made. From the very thought process down to the chain of command, the sequence of links, the bio-chemical algorithms, the very network of cells that made this entire process possible from the very beginning. You simply cannot, but you might refute with, well I have been there before so I know that it’s a nice choice, or you’ve had friends telling you of what a nice place Italy is, or even that out of the alternatives you where considering from, Rome “felt” as the best one. I think you can see that your choice was already made, based on many factors, such as past life experience, your current mood, marketing strategies from travelling agents in TV or newspapers, your personality, your genes, the state of Italy. Did you decide the outcome of all these factors as well, just as your alternative?

We are all just as autonomous as the very cells that makes us up, nothing in-between gives us the ability of free will, and why it actually is not such a bad thing

It took sometime for me to accept and truly process this, but in the end, it has only made my life richer. If I cannot determine the outcome of my life, why should I be worried? If my brain just takes decisions at random or in a deterministic nature, won’t data, information, knowledge and wisdom better them? And will not false realities, or the fact that I might be delusional in some sense, not be worth to figure out? To be open-minded of what I don’t know, to minimize the risk of taking inaccurate decisions that might decrease the quality of my life?

And since where are all rational agents of various levels, and that life in some sense is just a happening, deterministic/random or both, that life is just a question of probability/improbability, an ever flowing river of events, won’t acceptance, thankfulness, and an ever-embracing mind be something that could be of use to foster?

By reflecting deeply about life, by going to the bottom of these question, no matter the pain, we can make our life’s richer, rather than fleeing from them and live with false pretences. Because if you haven’t even processed the idea on how decisions and behaviour arise, especially your own, how conscious are you really?